I come from a very close knit family and I am very blessed to have a family that is loving, caring and very close..... this extends to my cousins and second cousins as well. My cousin Laine and I talk often and keep each other in check! Love her like a sister.
Well, let's get on with it..... before I chicken out of spilling my inner most feelings to the world to read.
First, I want to thank you all for the kind words and encouragement.
Well, let's start with the first word:
Murder & 40
In 2006 my cousin Richard was killed. Brutally and planned by his girlfriends son! Horrified and devastated my family. He and I are the same age, it killed a bit of my heart. Well after 4 long years, the man took the plea bargain of 20 years over a LONG trial and death by needle.
I hurt he only got 20 years, I felt it should be his entire life time. but his inability to be in society prevailed and he assaulted a Federal Law Officer in prison, they gave him another 20! Giving him 40 years in prison.
Here is a photo of Richard and Me!
Death
As you most know my beautiful aunt passed away. I will always remember her smile and her laugh!Mayhem!
My cousin {whom, I have been searching for, for over 3 years!} suddenly appeared! I am not sure what happened with her and her family, but I do know it had to do with drugs, addiction and money. She is an addict. She took off, lived on the streets homeless and is now getting help {again} I spoke with her last week on the phone.... she sounded good, clean and very sad. Her mother was the one who died. She did not get to say good bye or to make amends. Now her brother are not allowing her to attend the Memorial Service which is causing some rippling of emotions within my family. I feel bad for her, it was her mother too. I don't trust her but she should be able to grieve and seek comfort with her family. I don't forget she is an addict, I don't let my guard down but I do believe in forgiveness. Forgiveness doesn't mean forgetting.
Overwhelmed
Work has been really busy working 10-12 hour days, but I am glad of it! Thankful actually. Keeps my mind of everything outside of work for a bit!!
Sadness
G i miss you.
Happiness
I seek beauty in the world; the beautiful woods for long walks with my dog in the snow. Talking on the phone with my niece Claire {who wants me to call her Lola *smile* Got to love sweet british Lola of Charlie and Lola} who tried to get my dog to bark for 20 minutes, hearing her giggle and laugh!
Knowing I have a loving and caring family who I speak to daily on the phone through out the day!
and all my friends who support me through it all! and you my bloggy friends! your encouragement, support, comments and friendship means the world to me.
On Monday, I will begin posting again!
I have been collecting and researching. I have some great posts to share.
I do hope you all are having a wonderful weekend. Keep enjoying life. and many thanks for reading through this bit!
xx
callie
